Oh darl I understand where you're coming from. All my experience tells me that pregnancy lasts 6 weeks and doesn't result in a baby

Could you make the effort to write a journal for your baby? Just a small entry every day, saying what you did for bub that day, how you're feeling etc. Obviously you wouldn't wanna make the whole thing a downer, so it might force you to focus on the good stuff, even if its only for an hour or so every day y'know? Talk to bub, rub your bump, basically 'fake it til you make it'. If you do these things often enough, hopefully it will override your current habit of stressing.....at least, that's my theory

Hugs for you hun